by: Kevin Caruso
http://Suicide.org

Suicide is extremely painful. And it is very difficult to move on after a suicide.

And looking for “closure” after a suicide is a natural thing to do.

But I would suggest that you not focus on closure, because it will never happen. The pain will always be there, and the challenges that the suicide has placed before you will never disappear.

And you will never find the answers to all of your questions about the suicide. Some questions in life simply have no answers.

So…

Focus on living your life one day at a time. In the best way that you can.

Focus on healing.

Focus on CELEBRATING the life of your suicide angel.

Focus on getting help for you and your family.

Focus on HELPING OTHERS who are in pain.

Focus on loving others.

And remember that the intense pain that you are feeling represents the great LOVE that you have for your angel.

And the love that you have for your angel will never “close.” And thus the pain will never “close.”

No, there is no “closure.”

There is just love.

Suicide grief: Healing after a loved one's suicide

Know when to seek professional help

If you experience intense or unrelenting anguish or physical problems, consider asking your doctor or mental health provider for help. Seeking professional help is especially important if you think you might be depressed or you have recurring thoughts of suicide. Keep in mind that unresolved grief can turn into complicated grief, where painful emotions are so long lasting and severe that you have trouble resuming your own life.

Depending on the circumstances, you might benefit from individual or family therapy — either to get you through the worst of the crisis or to help you adjust to life after suicide. Medication can be helpful in some cases, too.

Face the future with a sense of peace

In the aftermath of a loved one's suicide, you may feel like you can't go on or that you'll never enjoy life again. In truth, you may always wonder why it happened — and reminders may trigger painful feelings even years later. Eventually, however, the raw intensity of your grief will fade. The tragedy of the suicide won't dominate your days and nights. Understanding the complicated legacy of suicide and how to cope with palpable grief can help you reach inner peace and healing, without forgetting you're loved.

A loved one's suicide can be emotionally devastating. Use healthy coping strategies — such as seeking support — to begin the journey to healing and acceptance.

By Mayo Clinic staff

When a loved one dies, your grief may be heart-wrenching. When a loved one commits suicide, your reaction may be more complicated. Overwhelming emotions may leave you reeling — and you may be consumed by guilt, wondering if you could have done something to prevent your loved one's death. As you face life after a loved one's suicide, remember that you don't have to go through it alone.

Brace for powerful emotions

A loved one's suicide can trigger intense emotions. For example:

• Shock.Disbelief and emotional numbness may set in. You may think that your loved one's suicide couldn't possibly be real.
• Anger.You may be angry with your loved one for abandoning you or leaving you with a legacy of grief — or angry with yourself or others for missing clues about suicidal intentions.
• Guilt.You may replay "what if" and "if only" scenarios in your mind, blaming yourself for your loved one's death.
• Despair. You may be gripped by sadness, depression and a sense of defeat or hopelessness. You may have a physical collapse or even consider suicide yourself.

You may continue to experience intense reactions during the weeks and months after your loved one's suicide — including nightmares, flashbacks, difficulty concentrating, social withdrawal and loss of interest in usual activities — especially if you witnessed or discovered the suicide.

Adopt healthy coping strategies

The aftermath of a loved one's suicide can be physically and emotionally exhausting. As you work through your grief, be careful to protect your own well-being.

• Keep in touch.Reach out to family, friends and spiritual leaders for comfort, understanding and healing. Surround yourself with people who are willing to listen when you need to talk, as well as those who will simply offer a shoulder to lean on when you'd rather be silent.
• Grieve in your own way.Do what's right for you, not necessarily someone else. If you find it too painful to visit your loved one's gravesite or share the details of your loved one's death, wait until you're ready.
• Be prepared for painful reminders.Anniversaries, holidays and other special occasions can be painful reminders of your loved one's suicide. Don't chide yourself for being sad or mournful. Instead, consider changing or suspending family traditions that are too painful to continue.
• Don't rush yourself.Losing someone to suicide is a tremendous blow, and healing must occur at its own pace. Don't be hurried by anyone else's expectations that it's been "long enough."
• Expect setbacks.Some days will be better than others, even years after the suicide — and that's OK. Healing doesn't often happen in a straight line.
• Consider a support group for families affected by suicide. Sharing your story with others who are experiencing the same type of grief may help you find a sense of purpose or strength.